Circus Fair

If now is the moment
why are you not here?

When I call your name
nothing appears...

Apparitions, full of fear
Haunt the mind as day draws near...

too many corners
in between
when i see you
you don't see me
turn the lock
toss the key
go running back
thru history


Lover, love, lover, loved,
so it slips to the sky above
like prayers cut from trembling lips
the secret stolen from bridled bliss
your truth like rocks, piled high
a stark, solid, crumbling pile
fades into the dark night sky...

I remember midnight when
we sat giggling on playground swings
and flew so high, falling back,
it was glee
it was slack
it was tiptoes
on wooden floors
avoiding boards that made squeaking noise
I showed you my childhood toys
and you smiled with all your poise
knowing little girls like that...

so now i see
how we missed
each moment of sattvic bliss
disturbed, and unending train
like the ocean becomes the rain
becomes the falling on mountain tops
becomes the spring, becomes the cup
and she drinks it, ever near
a trembling lip and falling tear...
she waited for him to appear
night sky unframed by his silhouette
she knew she had not found him yet

Memories fade, like morning dew
I never thought I would stop loving you
I never thought you would stop too
We never knew which thought was true
but here it goes,
the poetry becomes the prose
becomes the smile turned upside down
becomes the stories in which we drown
becomes the way we lose ourselves
the ideas that steal our health

nothing resolves,
yet something grows
filling up the broken holes
something glows like molten rock
and suddenly, pain just stops

all is free, and light and air
like children in their underwear
forgetting just why to care
about having a soul laid bare
just enjoy the circus fair
kick up your heals
toss back your hair
balance your heart on moonbeam's stride
tone your mind, forget your pride
remembering it's just a ride
and only the living come out alive...